So I’m stressed and I know this because my entire night was spent dreaming non stop about serving. I served table after table after table like I was at work. I used to do this when I was a cashier as well and ring through people’s groceries in my sleep. I’ve been stressed about money lately, I’ve been in a transition, moving places and jobs so it makes money difficult. This month alone I paid $1250 rent and utilities between two different apartments as well as all my regular expenses like my cell phone that was double the amount is normally is. So all of this happened simultaneously as going back to serving which is a very unpredictable income.
I had a conversation with my boyfriend how money doesn’t buy happiness, but being finically stable for me is comfort. And right now I don’t feel that way. I was planning on saving all my tips and spending my pay cheques but that is not effective because I feel like I’m going without and can’t afford what I need, so I’m going to reverse it to spending my tips and saving my pay cheques how I used to. And for some therapy today I’m getting my hair cut and buying a micheal kors purse. That’s bound to make things better :p
I feel so lucky that I have found someone so perfect for me.
I call him a tool sometimes, and he calls me a dirty bum, but they’re still affectionate nick names.
It’s so adorable how we either go out or cook supper together at home, and how we can’t go through a day of work without missing one another. When I wake up in the mornings beside him I feel lucky and fortunate that he’s there every time. I could hug him for hours because it feels like comfiest and safest place in the world. It doesn’t matter what we’re doing but I feel content just being near him. It’s funny because neither of us think we’re anything exceptional but find each other amazing. I think that’s important, to see all the wonder and beauty in someone they may have missed themselves. I consider myself extremely fortunate to be with him.